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12 6 / 2011
I allow myself to be emotional avalible to someone that I know I cannot have because I believe that 99% of the time, the feelings I feel, will not be returned. Therefor I am in “safe” territory because I know where I stand at all times. So i’m in control of the “relationship” YET,… when those feelings, that I dont expect to be shown to me, are shown to someone else, traits of jelousy creep in… Why is that, if i KNOW what it is?
It’s because although 99% says it wont be that and I do not expect it. The 1% still counts for something and it counts for “hope. Hope of being wanted agaist all adds... you know, that media induced, “fairytale hope”.
I DO live in the real world but sometimes the windows that close off that world of “fairytale hope” i subcociously open when I’m sleep because, in my subconcious mind, In my DREAMS, anything is possible and thats why although opened in my sleep, I will NEVER CLOSE when awake…
Because I know never to close off my dreams or shut them out because its those windows lead to my heart and soul and although that 1% how ever small. It is where my heart lives and where ever my heart lives…. I want my mind, body and soul to eventually end up.
14 2 / 2011
**In light of 2days events**
You shudnt wait until a birthday, christmas or made up commercial holiday to show the person that you Love or care for… that you do. Every moment you share with them shud be treasured & acknowledged…
Buying/receiving Gifts doesn’t say “I love you” more then the words spoken true from heart, although they very much DO enhance the notion.
And lastly: *LOVE* true, pure and of the soul comes to those that truly do love, respect and know there OWN worth.
No truer words are:
“If you dnt love yourself no1 else ever will”
Enjoy ur Monday 14th February b glad that you have another day of life and if u so happen to have sum1 special to share your day with dnt 4get about the other 364 other days of the year that they make ur heart skip a beat or smile @ the mention of there name…
**Happy Monday 14th feb 2011**
Tori KBD - 07540463363 - twitter.com/torikbd